No, i'm only mildly obessed with wickedSaturday, March 17, 20128:39PMso i think this coming august i'm just going to peace out of the country for a good six months and live on a boat. both the parentals did it...might as well carry on the tradition and stave off adulthood and the real world as long as possible. Wednesday, March 7, 201211:19PMi love this livejournal. i've had it since middle school? 9th grade? Before I was an adult. Monday, May 9, 20114:17AM - i can't sleep......so i figured i'd rant. i'm decent at ranting. probably because i have such a negative view on things most of the time. ugh. Tuesday, March 22, 2011Saturday, December 18, 20105:13AMit seems that cooper robs me of my sleep. there is no reason i should be awake right now. i woke up 20 hours ago. had 3 hours of sleep before that. this is crazy. jax please. Friday, November 12, 20106:22PMIn Tampa for the weekend thanks to ethics bowl. Being here feels weird and even weirder because I may end up here for grad school. Too many decisions during this trip... Friday, September 24, 20102:15AMBad news: stupid on call phone went off so now I'm left watching South Park by myself. Saturday, September 11, 201011:08PM - New Jersey: a state of malls, quik stops, and reflectionNot that this really requires an entire post, but I feel the need to document the fact that no matter how much I complain, I'm incredibly blessed. Being in NJ normally makes me feel like crap, but after the texts I got today I just feel at peace in the universe (aaand that comment makes me sound like a hippy. Or my mom..). Saturday, August 21, 201010:52PMFinally a load off my mind. Came down to SoFla for the weekend..it was interesting. I have to come back the weekend after next for yet another doc appointment. Oh well, such is life. I don't think I've had a stomach ache as bad as the one I have right now in years, BUT this means that my body is finally getting itself back together. WITHOUT pills! I hate the way I feel right now, but I'm just trying to concentrate on the blessing that this is. I like having options and I am close to tears (of joy) because I think I'm slowly getting some of the ones I lost back. I've kicked myself over and over again for being a stupid and insecure teenager (leaving stupid and slightly more secure adult me angry over the consequences of my actions), but at this point there isn't anything I can do about it. What is meant to be will be. That's all there is to it. Tuesday, August 17, 20109:00AM - I lied.I am actually ticked off. You fucking sat there in my fucking RA's room with the fucking door open watching me try to move everything by myself. Did you not see how much I was struggling? I'm not strong enough to carry a fucking fridge by myself. And then you wonder why I sound "ticked off". I am in so much fucking pain today because you wouldn't help me! I'm too fucking prideful to ask for help and you know it!!! How can you act like that if you care about me????? How dare you sit there watching a movie and waving at me when I clearly need help. Saturday, August 7, 201011:18AM - Woman-y rantsI need to do one of two things: Sunday, August 1, 201012:21AMKeturah and I went swimming tonight. I had this flashback to my 15th birthday when I got convinced that there was something in the waterfall. I'm in a fairly emo mood right now (not just because of that... Cooper has that sort of effect on me) this quote from Garden State says it all "You know that point in your life when you realize that the house you grew up in isn’t really your home anymore…all of the sudden even though you have some place to put your shit, that idea of home is gone…or maybe it's like this rite of passage…you will never have that feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, for your kids, for the family you start. It’s like a cycle or something. Maybe that’s all family really is: a group of people that miss the same imaginary place." Wednesday, July 14, 20108:34AMThe word "wedding" is hereby banned from my vocabulary until further notice. Instead of obsessing over what isn't, I shall spend my time focusing on what is true, honorable, right, pure, lovely, and admirable. Monday, July 12, 20103:18PMNew Jersey was special as always. This time we were joined by my dad's mom. It was the first time she'd been up in the area (and seen my mom's mom) since my folks got married. There weren't really any surprises this time either. I knew that I was going to be called "Alice" by my mom's mom, I knew my mom would freak out over her mom, and I pretty much expected that my mom and I were going to butt heads frequently. What I wasn't expecting was my behavior on the flight up. I started crying right after getting out of the car when I got dropped off, and kept crying until I fell asleep shortly after we took off. To call it weird doesn't do it justice. I think I was probably just tired and cranky, but I could not for the life of me calm the hell down. I hate flying. I hate leaving Jacksonville. I hate knowing that my grandmother has no clue who I am most of the time (she complimented my/Alice II's new glasses too- I wore my contacts the entire trip...). Growing up sucks. It is always wonderful to return though. There is nothing quite like that feeling of being picked up from the airport by people you love. Monday, July 5, 20101:23PMI have the strangest craving for mushrooms. Currently working on figuring something else to eat with said mushrooms. Maybe toast? Wednesday, June 23, 20105:04PMI need longer shorts. Time to purge the closet. Monday, June 14, 201012:27AM - I <3 KeturahKeturah Lilli Robison: there's this little button.....called "adjust thumbnail" - you should utilize it. because you are NOT the top part of a castle. just sayin' Friday, May 28, 20107:17PMI have just discovered the problem with dating a guy with devout Catholic parents. Because my mom just totaled her car (that is i suppose the conclusion to all of the car drama), she didn't want us driving down there for the day so she decided that it would be better for us to just stay the night Friday and Saturday and drive back to Jax on Sunday morning. I told her I'd have to run it by him, and he told me it was fine so she went ahead and did it. When he just discussed this with his parents, it did NOT go over very well. Apparently, this "sends the wrong message" and it's "not right" if we aren't planning on getting married any time soon. His parents seem to think that we conned my parents into doing this (IT WASN'T EVEN MY IDEA!!!!!). They also added that ultimately, it was his decision, but that they weren't pleased about it. This, of course, puts Paul in a bad place. He doesn't want to make them not happy, and he doesn't want to make my family not happy. I don't want to cause issues with his parents, and I REALLY don't want them to hate me. My mom is being oddly supportive on this one (maybe her medication got changed?) and has told me not to worry, that everything will work out and she'll do whatever is necessary to make sure that I have a great birthday. agg. Tuesday, May 25, 20108:39PMI seriously need to cut this whole passive-aggressive crap out. I've been upset for most of the day and haven't said a damn word about it. This does absolutely nothing for me, it only makes me more pissed off when the object of my annoyance doesn't pick up on the fact that I'm ticked. Tuesday, May 18, 20108:24PM - hopefully the final installment of "Why Cars Suck"My mom was in a wreck yesterday. She was on her way to work and got hit by someone going 50+ mph when she was inching around a blind corner. Nothing broken, but she was burned and cut up pretty badly... Neither of the parents let me know until I called my dad earlier when he said "...can I call you back? the insurance company is calling about your mother's wreck." No clue how they're going to deal with the car, apparently the front was smashed to smithereens. Sigh. I'm never getting in a car again. Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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